[one day i'll be a superstar * watch me shine ^^

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-30T18:09:00.003+08:00

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
never felt happier for so long!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TO CELEBRATE THIS JOYOUS OCCASION, SURE, I WILL CLOSE DOWN MY TAGBOARD..

AND I GONNA SHIFT MY BLOG.. AFTER MY EXAMS..

Thanks to the true rai and ken for helping me "manage" the tagboard!
after my exams lets go out! :D

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

thanks a lot God!

now. bless my friends please! :D

and me?

i need a clarity of mind for this exams.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

oh my god. i feel like calling someone and shouting into the phone my excitement!!!

WAHAHAHAHAHA!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JC VS POLY DEBATE

2010-04-26T17:19:00.004+08:00

THE JC VS POLY DEBATE

ok, i admit i am a little slow in catching up with this topic, because I totally forgot to check up razor tv whenever i come online.

Well, if i don't remember wrongly, Mr Lee said that there is no "level playing field" for JC students, and therefore, the former should be given priority in getting a place in the local univeristies.

In my opinion, I guess Singapore is still a meritocratic society, so basically each and every able student should be given the means to upgrade and better him/herselves. But I have to agree the thing about level playing field is glaringly obvious. In a span of two years, we are made to cram 3 H2 subjects and 4 H1 subjects in total on top of our CCAs and school events, whereas for the poly people, they are able to take their time in learning what they like. Many even have the time to work part-time while studying. So imagine how much time they have, except of course for the occasional periods close to the examinations.

Another point I would like to raise is that, JC people are not just book smart =.= i guess that's jsut a consolation for people who could not make it to the generally perceived so-called higher strata. I experienced the same treatment during Freshman Orientation Day where some counsellor too spoke to my cohort in the most reputable private university, that we are much more street-wise than the local university students which I think is just bull shit. So I got to make this point clear, poly people, we have life in JC. We have extremely crazy and fun orientation camps and activities. Yes, we do mug not because we love to mug but we just HAVE to do it. So we are not nerds and geeks, who love books and only books.

On the issue that poly people are better with practical because they have attachments and stuff, I agree that poly people are much better at the "hands-on" aspect. However, does being more hands-on equate to doing better in universities? It depends really. For engineering courses, yup, obviously an engineer needs to work with machines or chemicals if you are biochemistry engineer, so you are of an edge over the JC people in that respect. But for humanities and social sciences, I guess in JC, there are General Paper and Knowledge Inquiry and those subjects alone open up our minds since we do do research on general issues and societal development. So I guess, merely guessing, JC students will do better in that field.

JC or Poly doesn't matter. What's important is we are all Singaporeans, and we should stand together and protest against those foreigners who are taking up our places in the local universities. Although only 20 percent of the university place are allocated to foreigners, their extremely competitive nature and the fact that many modules which they are taking were in fact, mastered before in their home country shows that, us Singaporeans, JC or Poly alike are at the losing end, since the bell curve will be shifted against the weaker students.

I really cannot imagine the society Generation Z is going to live in.

"Not summer's bloom lies ahead of us, but rather a polar night of icy darkness and hardness." - Weber.

:(

2010-04-19T00:41:00.001+08:00

please please please?

motivation to study.

quickly..

haven finished revising even once for econs.

and yet i am so relaxed.

arghs.

?

2010-04-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

it's strange how i do get spam.

it's easy to check the ip address.
so i got a rough guide of where the imposter is coming from..
stop your nonsense,
you just watch it.

don't impersonate the names of my people.
xiaobai and ah pig will never be so disgusting.

---------------------------------------------------

study!
arghs.
victoria is right..
next year?

:)

2010-03-18T13:35:00.004+08:00

haven't blogged for a long time!

some events..

grace's birthday celebration on friday.

and the same day,

accompanied winnie to my school's open house.

then went NUS to look for joyce.

but she didn't pick up her phone.

so i called yeo.

so went to look around at the hostel.

yeo was kind enough to offer a famished me some really tasty biscuits :)

afterwards,

went to bunny's block.

saw how hall looks like..

then monday.

4A's gathering.

mrs tan didn't come.

i left early.

yeah.

met up with terence yesterday.

he showed me his new unit from below.

then we chatted over some teh tarik at our usual hangout.

heh.

no motivation..

going guitar camp on friday.

and a slew of events afterwards.

actually my timetable should be quite alright la.

just that..

i need to tell myself to study when i have to.

can't wait for holidays to end.

but then again,

i didnt work hard at all.

so i doubt that kind of feeling,

that of delinquishment (is there such word?)

will not surface.

:)

2010-02-07T21:20:00.004+08:00

was packing my stuff.
felt rather nostalgic..
when i see the sweet messages from my beloved friends.

i like valentine's day, in school.
because one usually receives more gifts..
although one gives out more too..

i miss receiving flowers.
i miss the chocolates.

i miss my friends..

i miss the hustling and bustling of a rich, vibrant school life,
where you know almost everyone.
every corner turned,
you say hi.
hahaha..

and righ now,
i wish..
for that bouquet of bears..

i don't actually carry much hope.
since everyone's busy.

but then,
it does thrill me.
just by imagination :)

i have changed a lot.
go and study.
stop wasting time.

sians..
no matter how many times i say,
it just doesn't sink.
and i hate working.
10 hours.
tomorrow :(

but i need the money!

so jiayou!

it's not so hard to do it well.
if i put in a little more effort :)

2009-11-15T02:28:00.003+08:00

it's just ironic.
how i keep thinking what a wonderful day today is.
how happy i felt.
just by the thought of the lights in Orchard.
and the Christmas feel.

and then.
i had to be pulled right down to the other end.

ha.

happiness is still determined by oneself.
so, if i want to be happy,
i can
:)

good luck to sissy's As! God bless her!

2012

2009-11-14T02:32:00.003+08:00

after watching 2012,
i feel quite sad..
and was scared during the duration of the movie...

well, watching our own species perish before our very eyes is a frigtening thought.
i would prefer all of us die in our sleep,
and meet again in heaven,
with our egoism all gone.

painless death, or rather divine esclation to heaven.

will you grant my wish, God?

:(

2009-11-07T19:47:00.002+08:00

ee yer.
not that jc peeps are not street-wise.
many of my friends are.
and my sister is...

it's just me...

:(

boss has been kind.
encouraging me.
i think she would really make a great teacher.

i don't know why i have this split personality.

why do i behave so different in school and at work?
or for that matter, in MOE schools and at other places?

don't like it.

:(

marathon in a few hours.
sians.

cost of a mistake

2009-10-26T15:52:00.004+08:00

cost of a mistake.
what makes you think the grass on the other side is greener?

after so long,
that's still what my gut feeling is still telling me.

if it persists,
i think i gonna go with my gut.

.....

i want more jobs.

introduce please!

2009-10-19T00:41:00.001+08:00

feels happy :D

so easy to make myself happy.

the fact that i dwell a lot works two ways actually.

:D

sis kept telling me i am getting fatter,
which is seriously true.
got too lazy to run.
then mum encouraged me.

although it's just 4 rounds,
and a few cool down,
i love the adreanaline rush.
i enjoy the sweat and the sense of well-being i feel after exercising.

then a nice cold shower,
followed by talking with mum and sis in my air-con cave.
shiok.

Life's what you make it
So lets make it rock
Lifes what you make it
So come on come on
Lets celebrate it
Join in everyone
You decide
Cause life's...what you make it..

:D

public speaking

2009-10-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

sighs.

public speaking.

am i that bad?

i have always been on stage.
the accent.
which i always lament.

went to 2 events today.
first was to be the emcee for judo.
that, i think i would blame it on my memory.
for forgetting the sequence.
although, it sounds what the hell.

the second event is the dialogue session with MP.
i thought my question was great.
because i would shoot her back with what she had said.
of course, using the bounded rationality approach,
this structuring was the best i could come up with.
and it was really burning.
i had to let it go.
but still, i chose to take the back seat.
and ta-da.

what makes me think it is a good question?
perhaps it's a dumb one?
dwell so much for what.
ya.

i don't care.

i will rid my phobia.

When you believe

2009-10-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

many nights we pray,
with no proof anyone could hear,
in our hearts a hopeful song,
we barely understood....

now we are not afraid...
although we know there's much to fear..
we were moving mountains long before we know we could.....
oh....yeah..

there can be miracles when you believe..
though hope is frail,
it's hard to kill..
who knows what miracles you can achieve.
when you believe...
somehow you will...
you will when you...believe....

in this time of fear...
when prayers so often proves in vain,
hope seems like the summer birds..
too swiftly flown away..
now i am standing here..
when my hope so full, i can't explain..
seeking faith and speaking words i never thought i could say....

there can be miracles....
when you believe....
though hope is frail,
it's hard to kill...
who knows what miracles..
you can acheive..
when you believe...
somehow you will...
you will when you believe....

...
and it's easy to give in to your fear..
but when you're blinded by the pain,
can't see your pain to the rain.
the thought of a resilient voice..
says love is very near..

..
though hope is frail..
it's hard to kill...
who knows what miracles you can achieve...
when you believe...
somehow you will...
somehow you will..
you will when you believe......

you will when you...
YOU WILL WHEN YOU..
BELIEVE!!!!

BELIEVE BELIEVE BELIEVE!!
PIGGI AND CAIYING JIAYOU!

hmmm..
4 weeks bah.
just do your best.
i had a dream driven off by A level anxiety yesterday..
i don't mind mugging in SR all over again haha.
if time returns.
biology.chemistry.mathematics.economics.general paper.
jiayou jiayou jiayou!
miracles do exist!

Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm.
~Sir Winston Churchill~

random thoughts

2009-10-03T01:41:00.002+08:00

whoa i am crazy.
one song.
is enough to make me think.

being sad makes you feel happy more easily.
if you think carefully.

wo bu xiang zhang da.

has always been the case.

but i am still growing day by day.

arghs.

i miss the warmth.

i miss the life.

i miss the moment.

but sometimes, am i asking for too much?

if the world is to come to an end in 2012,
and everyone's to die peacefully,
reincarnated again million times stronger, more responsible and other postive traits multiplied to infinity,
maybe we will miss our uniqueness,
but it would be a much better place isn't it?

arghs.

lantern trip 09

2009-10-03T01:14:00.002+08:00

well, went to play lanterns, candles and sparklers with some of my friends just now.
Gai was late.
because of some accident.
thus the 2 of us were late, because she doesn't know how to go and i offered to bring her over.
joycelin wanted to come just for half an hour.
because all of us were late,
she left after seeing us for a short little while.
bad organizer, they blamed me.
hahahaha.
i say i am a free and easy organizer lor.
hoho.

so. the place was infested with cockroaches.
i tried to burn them with the sparklers.
but they were too fast for me.

we used the packaging and placed the candles in it,
turning it into a makeshift paper boat.
kinda beautiful.

another lantern trip tomorrow hopefully.
with the little ones.
yay :D

2009-09-24T00:33:00.002+08:00

blogging urge is back :)

well, met up with liyan today.
at my kovan mac.
was late for half an hour :X

but was forgiven when she saw what i have prepared for her.
:D

hope it will bring joy to her when she feels alone.
but knowing her talkative nature,
she will not be alone :)
just in case she misses us,
i guess that thing will come in handy :)

take care liyan.

another 1 and a half hours to your departure.
why didn't you switch on your handphone!
worried that you may tear is it?
i wanna talk to you before you board the plane leh.

miss you!
take good care!

:D

2009-09-21T23:57:00.004+08:00

wahahahha.
i placed the photo below on my msn.
and i lied to justin and lin.
the girl in picture was me.

justin really believed!
damn funny.
lin was a little bit skeptical.
and i must say she has gone smarter after i lied to her i was in campus superstar that year.
haha.

oh my god.

i really love that show!

that song..
so beautiful.
i wish i know piano.
i wish i can play guitar better.
haha.

all of a sudden.
the mood is back.
i wanna go out more often.
sitting at home doesnt mean i am looking for a job.
might as well go out and enjoy.
this week gonna be packed.

jiayou darkangel.
and should start studying soon.
uni econs is hard.
especially uol's.
haha.

how i wish i could go for ocs social night too.
sighs.

yay tomorrow is my judo fashion show.
so lame.
in judo gi.
still must pose.
hejia and i gonna end off with him carrying me.
on top of his head.
like the kind you see in judo competitions.
and me popping the party poppers.
haha.
and for my ending gals' pose,
i gonna punch christine.
hahaha.
judo VS takwando.
hehe.

oh yeah.
sunday i went for the rehearsal.
i used my sis's ez link card.
and i was damn unlucky.
the ticket officer came on board.
i told them i didnt scan my card.
cuz i didn't want them to confiscate my sis's card.
end up they nagged at me for 20 minutes.
and i was made to pay a fine of 20 bucks.

the other time i was caught eating when the hefty fine wasnt imposed yet.
so i could get away scott free.
but still it brought me really down.

why am i so unlucky.

i wish this week will be fun.

cuz i am not that much of a boring person i guess?

fated

2009-09-19T18:32:00.004+08:00

oh my god.

so sweeeetttttt!

i love the show!

just watched the first episode.

although Science exists to answer our quries,

there are loads more left unexplained.

fated to happen.

it's destiny.

.....

and happy 18th birthday piggi!

what a surprise.

and nice ice cream cake.

so envious!

unjustified

2009-09-15T01:11:00.002+08:00

wo de kuai le, hui hui lai de....

living in a world where there is no clear-cut black or white,
many a time we find ourselves in the grey region.
muddled by the intricacy of life.

was it the iniquitous working of the mind?
the moment of impulse,
rendered to leave scars behind?

i can emphatize with the character.
was it totally the fault of hers to blame?
so unfair.
the world of injustice.

....

psychology of the mind.
learn that.

2009-08-15T00:36:00.002+08:00

haha.

hello everyone.

back.

just went out with liyan and sam.

i am so gonna miss liyan.

friends will forever be friends.
even though we have not seen each other for so long,
there are still endless things to say.

hope all goes well to all my friends out there.

LIYAN!
must keep in touch!
webcam okay!
:(

2009-08-01T02:24:00.000+08:00

more than a decade ago,
i often wonder to myself,
i often question God,

why am I to experience all of this?
i want a change.
a gradual change.
so that no one will ever notice.

a friend told me,
"whatever will be, will be.
the future's not ours to see."

ten years later, my prayer is answered.

and i thank you God.

there are both pros and cons.
the conviction i hold plays a huge role :)

...

birthday this year was great.
thanks to PENGUIN LIU for the wonderful surprise :)
although i kinda spoilt it :)

thanks to YUANLIN for the fabulous surprise :)
really sweet of you to make the organizer.
and i was completely caught off-guard.

thanks for all the celebrations to my cliques and guitar.

really appreciate everything that you guys have done.
cannot express my gratitude enough here because it's 230 am in the morning and i should be sleeping.
you know i love those who love me.
thank you! :D

:)

2009-07-01T02:39:00.003+08:00

so, these days,
have been repeatedly approached regarding the birthday gifts i want.
so,
guess i should come up with a wishlist after all?

hmmm.

1) IPOD TOUCH 16GB :p
2) Shades from roxy
3) Beach Bag from roxy haha but closed down already
4) Tube dress

taken out because reserved?
actually i am not sure :S
5) swimming goggles
6) swimming cap
7) badminton racket made from titanum

8) white clutch
9) adidas watch
10) big card :D
11) balloons :D
12) big present box :D
13) cap

as of now, these are what i want :)
erm,
try not to get plush toys please.
although i like it,
i have a lot of them. :D
and there is only one ah pig in my heart :D

i wonder how many items will get checked.
just a reference i guess.
for those who requested :)

and..

happy birthday ngak hiang!
happy belated birthday sherlin, XC, wei zheng, david!
cancer babies rock! :D

:D

2009-06-30T00:00:00.002+08:00

erm.

actually,
this is my true wishlist..
the one stated there was wishes many years ago.
look,
i already have highlighted and dyed hair..
haha.

erm,
not trying to be BHB here.

well,
yeah,
annoymous wanted me to type this:

1) alarm clock (same like last year, last year's post is more detailed though) checked..

erm,
don't really feel like blogging the rest though.
bad experience from last year?
hahaha.
and..
reminded again..
i lost my specs that day.
arghs.

:D

2009-06-29T23:51:00.002+08:00

:D

yay.

after knowing some planned event,
i feel a little bit grateful.
thank you very much.
but should have kept me in the dark.
urghs.

haha.

am indeed thankful and appreciative to family.
but i really like crowds :)

but anyway,
i am happy :D

2009-06-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

some vibrancy i need.

i feel bored.

and i hate it when people get angry with me.

but life,

will get better.

because,

i will make it better.

:)

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee post

2009-06-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

eeeeeeeeeee.

why i so emo one.

eeeeeeeeee.

why is it in-built with me.

eeeeeeeeeeeeee.

why my case so serious one.

eeeeeeeeee..

hate it. detest it.

and i hate this part of indecisiveness again.
it's going to kill me.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

:)

2009-06-07T00:56:00.002+08:00

it's now 7th june 09.
haha.
one year ago,
i was too hyper.
perhaps,
2 years ago,
it was really great and my expectations grew.

hahaha.

don't care now.

anyway,
because of some chinese calendar thingy,
my chinese one and english one falls on the exact same day.

how coincidental?
very coincidental!
haha.

....

enjoyed today :)

love people i love :)

:(

2009-06-02T00:41:00.004+08:00

went to the red concentration camp today.
bull shit.
No Action, Talk Only..
doesn't exactly reflect my agenda but,
let's just say,
i love history...
haha..
no link?
history students should know.

and yeah i really think my interest is waning..

was appreciated and was motivated because earlier on,
there was sales.
now?
totallly unenthusiastic.

and i can't believe i'm working tomorrow.

=.=

earn the money for another bag :)
so jiayou!

and i think i'm an introvert.
haha.
i'm quite anti-social.
the personality test is right.
haha.

i don't like new changes :(

2009-05-31T16:30:00.002+08:00

i always know i'm not smart.
but some people just make me feel really stupid.
arghs.
forget it.

worst timing ever for my marathon yesterday.
sighs.
after jc,
don't know will i ever regain the stamina.
arghs.
anyway,
signing up for another marathon again.
don't care.

should have had more back up plans today.
arghs.
forget it.

and oh shit,
afraid i got to pang seh trendy.
damnit.
sorry trendy.
tomorrow confirm already then i sms you.
don't think you will see this anyway.

arghs.

stuck at home again.

after so many days.

it's not as if no one wants to go out right.
damnit.

car,
can i go your house to game later?
or should we go shopping?
or should i just stay home and read my eclipse.

arghs.

i just want to go ikea :(

:/

2009-05-27T17:27:00.003+08:00

haha i have never expected this.
perhaps, last time if i had spent more time doing this,
outcome would have been different.

yup.

wrong choices.

it's alright to feel regretful.

perhaps,

God has something in mind for me.

no choice = 1 choice.

well, alright then.

...

i love ufo catchers..

after the painful reunion of the guitar ensemble,
few of us went to have dinner.

and XC spent a lot of money on trying to get a plushie for shit and i.

although he still failed.
hehe.
but i really enjoyed the thrill.
:)

....

arghs.

it never rain, but it pours

2009-05-24T10:27:00.002+08:00

it never rain, but it pours.

a series of unfortunate events happening one after another,
fianlly accompanied by a deafening thunderstorm.

i like to believe in fate.

if fate thinks that i am not fated to have it,
i shall respect fate's decision,
after careful thought.

but still it sucks to think what you have planned,
is just building sandcastles in the air.

sick of all of this.

perhaps this is the final straw.

arghs.

i hope this is the last one.

.....

i am still very shocked.

one of our guitarists,
kai zheng,
actually passed away in the army.

according to the press,
he died of unnatural test.
how true this is,
i would not comment..

imagine, attending someone of my age's wake,
it's really...

especially after i have seen the parents and grandmother grieving,
it just makes everyone of us feel even more on the brink of tears.

well.

rest in peace, our friend.

busy

2009-05-07T10:19:00.003+08:00

busy girl in a busy world.

blogging addiction has been completely cured.

hoho.

well,
supposed to have quitted my job.
publicly announce to the staff and friends.

but i am needed at a roadshow.
my last job assignment i guess.
then i will take a 2 weeks break at least and then decide later what i wanna do.

so, people,
i'm working this weekend at vivo!
if you happen to pass by there come and look for me okay!

going to shop with my ah sai later.
yay :)
really long never shop already..

always out to game at the most..
most of the time,
W-O-R-K :(

......

well, anyway,
yesterday went to Pariss restaurant for mother's day dinner :)
went with lin, chen xin and mr gek 4 years ago and the food there left me craving for more all these years.

however,
yesterday's food was rather disappointing?
3 of us; 133 plus bucks.
shit said i could eat a lot,
but i ate less than what i paid for haha.

a lot of varieties..
but it's not exactly like what it claims on its website.

arghs.

next time i should just settle for yuki yaki.

............

i wanna rediscover my lost passion.

RUN.

2009-04-28T17:54:00.002+08:00

the guys did really well.
so much better than my seniors.
and me.

the 11th SRGE with the 3 J1s..

but still,

i feel disappointed...

although,
i'm not close to the j1s.

although,
i didn't even watch them train!

hmmm..

in the last syf,
i wanted so much for yy to get gold.
because they deserve it.

in this syf,
it's sr..

but both festivals,
there was only disappointment.

2 years later..

sr go go go..
okay?

anyway,
congrats to mr yeo..

really glad for him also.

his school was the only school in the jc category to get gold with honours.
i am really proud of my instructor,
whatever the situation :)

and sr i'm glad we beat hwa chong, sa, cj, aj..
not glad we beat yj though.
and glad that we are on par with tj, tp, acs(I), vj, nj..

can you believe it?
tj!
2 consecutive gold with honours guitar ensemble.
and sissy is quite shocked her school didn't even get gold.

and tp!

guitar competition's champion!
and they are a really really strong team..

we are on par with the so-called good schools on the higher end of the stupid ranking MOE came up with.

we lost to acj, rj, mj, and mr yeo's duman high.

ac..
we were one rank above them in the guitar competition!
they improved so fast.

oh well.

syf 2011..

sr sr gold gold gold!

2009-04-17T01:19:00.002+08:00

the truth is.

i care a lot about what others think of me.

and.

i hate complications.

so rid them for me.

happenings

2009-04-15T23:45:00.003+08:00

whoa.

enjoyed today.
if not for some issue.

this whole week i was allowed to work in cp!
and today,
both ada and kenneth worked!
had lunch with them :)
had fun listening to their love stories...

seriously,
i think i'm just a little girl?
too many fairy tales.
will i be like them in the near future?

i hope i still can be considered to prove kenneth wrong.......

on a dimmer note,
it is so boring..
because of recession i guess,
the crowd is pathetic.

well...

and yay,
that old virgin is gone.
hahahaha.
finally man.
hope a nice one comes by.
keeping fingers crossed.
but whatever lah,
i'm leaving soon anyway..

those that treated me well,
i will forever remember your kindness :)

so, time rewind...

tuesday..
went to send jerry off for NS..

i stepped foot on TEKONG!

and you know what,
i kept thinking we were going to some pasir ris camp.
and i only knew we were going to the haunted place on that fateful day.
but i never regretted.

what an eye-opener.
whatever stories that i have heard.
and i was going to THE place.

hope all my friends will be safe and sound.

wishing you all all the best :)

and yeah,
do miss your company :(

oh wells.

ta-ta..

:)

2009-04-08T23:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPENINGS

yoo hoo.

have not updated blog for a really long time..
skip last week's off days.
hoho.

for this week actually it's about the same..

friday to sunday,
f1 roadshow.
played with the stimulators.
got to know a few more acquistances.
and ta-dah,
no more roadshows due to a lot of issues..
partially my misdoings?
my cravings for food has gotten me into trouble the second time?
haha.
seems like my class is right to call me a glutton.

aw well..
just as well.
haha.
don't have to record that part.
guess things like that i will always remember in my head.

monday,
after meeting,
lan-ed for a little while...

then went to send my sien sien off.
went to harbourfront to meet sissy they all..

this time,
really spent very little time with my dearie..
she rarely comes to singapore and yet most of the time i am always not around.
more time to my family please.
sgxy..

tuesday,
2S08's outing..
was late again.
went amk then went back to SR!
had my favourite baked potato :D
accompanied mr kwek for his dinner..
and saw a lot of beloved teachers :D

after that, went ps and find the guitar peeps.
took over shit.
another lan session again.
haha.
had vegeterian food.
then jerry and nelson went to pool..

on the way back to bugis,
i saw another nelson!
i always think he looks like a rocker.
didn't know he can play pool.
position was damn cool.
i opened the door and called out to him.
he seemed shocked.
then i just walked off,
haha think my pants were too ugly..
hoho.

i miss west mall actually.
lao ren jia, ron.......
and i just found out that nicholas was posted there as well.
this perhaps means even more friendly gossips?
and actually i have mixed feelings whether i want to request to go there or not..

but still,
before i leave,
i think i will want to go there.
haha.

yeah 2 days gone like that..

then today..
i was appreciated :)

it must be God's doing.
really.

whenever i start to doubt,
something will happen.
push me right onto the track.

and i thank you God.

the customer was really grateful.
told me i was the single one who bothered to show him the channels and explained so thoroughly.
even complimented me to the counter staff.
but i guess i wasn't very receptive.
anyhows.

i did say thank you.
hehe.

and i feel proud telling him my alma matar.

he may have expected some other place.
but to me,
perhaps another way to show,
students from SR just can be as good.
seriously :)

i really love school :)

if we believe in something hard enough,
we will make it happen.

i miss tth's econs :)

:/

2009-03-28T23:34:00.003+08:00

guitar camp yesterday..

just went to eat a while..
didn't get to play lan because the guys were damn slow....

damn tired for work today..

2 people gave me morning calls and a third by my mum thankfully..

and...

i need a break....
i want to sleep...

:)

2009-03-25T00:20:00.002+08:00

off days again!

damn exhuasted.

monday..

watched the some movie regarding race, witch and mountain.
with my dears :)

tuesday..

went out with xinyi dear to apply for uni.
i was late for an hour.
then we were late for 2 hours for our meeting with our dears..
we cabbed there hence.

shopped around :)

more people next time :)

my class peeps rawk :D

...
...
...

happy but a really tired day

:)

:)

2009-03-22T01:09:00.002+08:00

today.
felt unwell at work.

after vomitting,
felt alright again.

but roy came and wanted me to go home.

in the end,

i had my way :)

stayed and saw mr kwek, joey and lee qin and meiyi..hehe.

i saw mr kwek's abigail.
so damn cute!

:D

and i brought mr kwek to ada's counter.

yay i like people who are nice to me :)

the good will be duely rewarded :)

....

stupid lin lin.
so long never come online...
never talk to her for sooooooooooo loooooooonnnnnnnngggg already!
arghs!

:/

2009-03-20T03:19:00.001+08:00

i felt really happy.

then shocked.

and now?

:/

:)

2009-03-19T01:14:00.002+08:00

i love off days! :D

monday, stayed in office after the meeting and "helped" out..
for the whole day :)

tuesday,
went with reddy, yong yi and chun yuan to play left 4 dead.
totally in love with the game.

played audition later also.
i won reddy most of the time :D

spent 12 bucks on lan games :X

then ate subway :D

i owe chun yuan a meal in return of the subway :)
and the rest ice creams because i was 22 minutes late :(

after that, met up with shit dear :)
went to get dickson's birthday present :)

so hard to search for guys' tops at ps.

but we know what we want.

the exact same style i once thought was cool.

i love my friends.

really.

:)

:/

2009-03-16T01:10:00.003+08:00

a bunch of idiots.

treating others well only when they suck up?

you don't deserve my respect.

gundos.

you think your signatures are worth a million gold nuggets?

who cares.

it doesn't matter.

idiotic bitches.

i'm not angry.

just not happy,
with that kind of people.

the two.

i like my company.
but some of the management people outside suck.

alright,
a lot of very nice staff around too.
it was them who made me feel passionate about the place in the first place.

but sadly,
those idiots came into the picture,
and my interest is dwindling.

haha.

:/

2009-03-13T02:48:00.001+08:00

am i just that serious?

think too much..

think a lot..

why am i always stuck with these attributes?

:/

:D

2009-03-10T23:57:00.003+08:00

happy day.

or,

days :D

i enjoy my off days.

always out.
from early morning,
till late night :D

i love life a lot :D

mon..
went for the meeting,
then roy brought xinyi and i to eat deep fried fish bee hoon.
nice nice.

then we stayed in the office when we actually wanted to borrow something.

then we ended up running errands for him.

next,
i asked jerry, dickson, kenny and nelson to come for the interview.
people who are my friends are definitely blessed.
hohohoho.

stupid kenny came along to kpo.
and played the very nice love story by taylor swift.
i must say,
his guitar skills is really good.
haha.

wanted to dinner with the guitar peeps,
but there is no vegeterian food at the food court.
and jerry was late.
so, just sent them off to the mrt.

went with xinyi and roy to back to the sixties.
nice restaurant.
fairly nice food.
not cheap.

tues...
woke up early to go to my second home..
but still, i was late.
explored my options with my favourite teacher :)
i miss consultations :)

then us four went to take photos at the field.

joycelin treated us bubble teas :D

i love the company of my jc clique though without winnie and stephan.
:)
happy happy :)

next, took bus with elaine to tampines mall.
met up with mr gek.
then xx came later.

nice lunch.

i miss shanghai's :)

nice people.
miss them loads :)

next, xx accompanied me to ps.
shopped around.
went retailer to see see.

alex was working.
cool.
chatted a bit.
then in the end, shit came.

next, we went to the lan shop to find the guys.
left 4 dead is fun!
should hv gone out with redonnia and gang to play earlier :)
fun but damn scary.
enjoyed it though :)

had subway for dinner.
first time i ate the sandwich.
saved the other cookie for my sissy :)

yay, today went out with many favourite people of mine.

happy day :D

sian. tomorrow got work.
sighs.
i prefer sai kang.
haha.
at least can sit.

quit it

2009-03-06T22:37:00.004+08:00

all of a sudden.

i get unknown numbers,

and random people,

asking what seems to be the hottest topic of the year.

what i had expected to do badly,

was quite good.

what i expected to fare better,

was really lousy.

that's all i want to reveal.

since this is a public blog.

:)

2009-03-03T01:16:00.002+08:00

:D

saturday..
redonnia and her little sissy came to visit me!
reddy bought me subway cookies :)
she always has got food for me one.
and emmiline kept wanting me to say her sissy very good.
hehe.

then,
kenneth came to visit!
but i was busy.
and he shouted to me in the shop.
for the fun of it..
idiot kenny.

then,
yeap jun came with his friend to sign up for a broadband!
i helped his friend get to waive off the registration charge.
hehe.
and his friend was so grateful.
hehe.

sunday...
i saw liyan!
i went out of the shop to call her.
and she gave me ferror roche :D

then,
i saw da jiu!
because he is my uncle,
eric gave him tips on what phones to buy.
haha.

i saw ivy also.
but didn't call her.

oh yes!
how can i forget that.
i saw MUCUS!
hehehehe.
and the baby was so cute!
knows how to say bye one!
hehehehe.

monday....
i went for the meeting.
was late for 40 minutes..
thank you kelvin for being late with me :)

went for trip with mum and dinner with car.

then went to send terence off at night..

thank you my dear friends who pei wo :)

have a safe trip and study hard!

:D

2009-02-28T00:38:00.002+08:00

I LOVE "I'm Yours" by jason mraz as well!
loved the song when tay ping hui sang it during the countdown actually.
hehe.

today..

i saw zhi yang!
haha.
i kept looking at him,
then i ran around the shop telling people he looks like some star...

later my colleague who served him told me he is really him!

SO OH MY GOD RIGHT!
if his parents were not around,
i would have taken a photo with him!
hahahaha.

i think he must have known i recognized him.
so obvious.

anyway,
he wears army specs now..
haha.

and today..

i bought my horoscope book!
after so many months!

showed my fellow cancer colleagues the book.

hehe.

after consecutive late night sleeps,
am really tired.

fell asleep while working today.

some people took photos.
haha.

hope i won't get sacked :X

:)

2009-02-27T01:31:00.001+08:00

D
We were both young when i first saw you
G
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
Bm G
Im standing there on a balcony of summer air
D
See the lights, See the party the ball gowns
G
I see you make your way through the crowd
Bm
You say hello
A
Little did i know
G A
That you were romeo you were throwing pebbles
Bm D
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
G
And i was crying on the staircase
A Bm D
Begging you please don't go, and i said
Chorus:
D
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
A
I'll be waiting all theres left to do is run
Bm
You'll be the prince and i'll be the princess
G A D
Its a love story baby just say yes
Repeat Intro
Verse 2
D
So i sneak out to the garden to see you
G
We keep quite because we're dead if they know
Bm
So close your eyes
A
Let’s keep this down for a little while
G A
Cause you were Romeo I was a scarlet letter
Bm D
and my daddy said stay away from Juliet
G
But you were everything to me
A Bm D
and i was begging you please don't go and i said
CHorus:
D
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
A
I'll be waiting all theres left to do is run
Bm
You be the prince i'll be the princess
G A D
Its a love story baby just say yes
D
Romeo save me, try to tell me how it is
A
This love is difficult, but its real,
Bm
Save me from the breakdown, make it out of this mess
G A
Its a love story baby just say yes, oh
D A Bm G
Bm G D A
I got tired of waiting, wondering if you were ever coming around
Bm G
My faith in you was fading
D A
Then i met you on the outskirts of town and i said

D
Romeo save me i've been feeling so alone
A
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Bm
Is this in my head, i don't know what to think
G A
He nelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

E
Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
B
I love you and thats all I really know
C#m
I talked to your dad go pick out a white dress
A B E
Its a love story baby just say yes
E B C#m
Oh, oh, yes
A E
We were very young when i first saw you

LOVE STORY

isn't that my favourite topic in a conversation?
HAHA!
love this song!

very happy with my current life

2009-02-25T00:40:00.006+08:00

alright..
time for an update..

went out with the LAOs..

one day every week :)
absolutely enjoyed it.

first time, we went to spring Winnie and Joycelin a surprise.
they were really delighted.

winnie hugged me even,
must have felt really touched..
especially since we have not met up for such a long time..

i really love it when i see the light of appreciation shown :D
marks my day..
really really :D

we bought cakes and shared.
love winnie :)
love joycelin :)
xinyi and stephan don't jealous okay.
haha.

then the second outing with my clique,
yuanlin came!
i really really miss yuanlin can!
and we didn't take any photos!

what a waste.

we went to minds cafe,
and i kind of had the runs.

haha.

because i drank 3 servings of milk..
i asked for it.
i wanted the mac breakfast.

then..

well, so, had fun..
and we went comm centre!
hahahahahaha.
occupation sickness.
shit.
i hate ST.
but, i just like to see the rivals' promotions and stuff!
haha!

went to find ada's bf!
but don't know which one, although i saw his facebook.
wah lao i v kpo hor.

hahahaha.

next, went to find joycelin again!
then shopped a little bit, but didn't buy anything..
then..

went to COMPASS POINT!

hahaha.
i bought barley for ada.
i know she can't do without it.

but i felt quite bad as well,
of not greeting some staff,
and not buying drinks for them..
arghs.

been spending a lot of money after my pay day.
and my pay isn't much,
especially since i have given like 45% of my salary to my mum..

well...

anyway,
on a much brighter tone,

today was a happy day!

first trip: ikea!
i went with mum.
wanted to get my bed, like finally.
and ikea is a cheater bug.

very few of their items are on sale only..

the things that i want still cost the same as before..

then i took the shuttle bus to tampines mall.

was determined not to be late.
perhaps kelvin would want to laugh at me.
hehe.

i was afraid shit would be unhappy.
i had really given her a lot of trouble regarding the off dates.

i wanted to take a bus there but i didn't know what service number to take.

and just then,
i saw the bus come.

damn lucky.

was 15 minutes early when i reached.
haha.
first time in history.

so i went to long john and waited for them.

amanda came next,
followed by jerry,
then dickson.

and shit was more than half an hour late.

hehe.

because she ended work late.

:)

we had pasta mania.
and i finished everything though eat a lot at ikea.

dickson ordered some italian soda.

and it was fantastic.
something like what i had ordered at nebo that time with penguin they all.

and thanks to jerry,
for paying the service charge and GST for us :)
i totally forgot the first 5 digits of his pin number now.
shit.

next,
shit and i slipped off.
went to buy some cake for amanda.
mango-flavoured one.

jerry was very daring,
went around borrowing a lighter,
from strangers.
hehe.
compliment okay.

then we sang birthday song for amanda,
with jerry the loudest.
he not pai seh one.

took some photos as well.

i really wanted to watch a movie.
but the timings were too late.
so we decided to just walk around..

we went to mini toons...

and there was this shopkeeper who ran to us and asked jerry if he needed any help in choosing the accessories.

then she whispered to me,
"he very shuai!".

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

someone fell in love with jerry at first sight!

DAMN FUNNY lor.

what a bold girl.

hahahahahaha!

well,
i really enjoyed the outing with the few guitar peeps.
thank you for those who came :)

and i know.
release of the a's results..
:(

how nice would it be,
if there is school,
without academic work..

i think i would have more close friends that way.
haha.

.

2009-02-16T16:00:00.002+08:00

it hurts so bad.

especially when it comes from you.

what i hope will not happen,

is already happening.

time..
will you stall?

valentine2009

2009-02-15T02:02:00.002+08:00

worked at my favourite branch today.

lunched with my favourite person :)

can only see my close colleagues like once every week now.

kinda sad?

but anyway,

colleagues at the other branch are fantastic as well. :)

from 4 roses and lotsa chocolates to 2 roses and a box of chocolate.

stupid mh never keep promise. haha.

but zf coming tomorrow.

so yay :D

like what some people say,

roses are not practical.

prefer to go out catch a movie together or something.

but actually,
i like receiving roses hohoho..

hint hint?

not really. my blog right. free to comment.

i like the bouquet of bears leh.

so cute!

and the best thing is they will never wither..

valentine's is over.

not considered hinting ar.

thanks for the roses for those who gave :)

thanks for coming all the way down to my working place! :)
and..

thanks for the get-together near my house :)

we haven't seen each other for such a long time..

hehe..

really enjoyed the sharing session :)

and yeah,

for people who bother to keep in contact with me,

we will forever be friends :)

when i was still schooling...

like this best. haha. who gave me the rose in the middle ar? ah shit was it you?

and today, as of 15th feb 2am..

time for me to get asleep!

happy total defence day,

and an even happier birthday to dearest mrs tan :D

:(

2009-02-08T00:29:00.000+08:00

i hate the feeling.

like a bit guilty.

sighs.

work

2009-02-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

it hurt my pride.
when they did that.

it was something really small to begin with.
why nag non-stop?
why feedback?
just making a mountain out of a molehill.

stupid idiots.

and today.

i'm so gonna get one compliment today!
:DDDDDDDDDDDD

and this one is for me and only me!

when the customer asked if there was any feedback form,
i told her to send an email.
so that i can print and paste on my wall.
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

thank you!
you never know what a great impact a compliment bring to me.
just what i needed.

somehow i think it is fated.
so thank you GOD!

the customer was very nice,
smiling at me,
that's why my smile never fades.
hahahaha.

but in this industry,
i have also learnt..
never smile too much....
to certain people

yeah.

and thank you to redonnia and dickson for visiting me today!
oh and also, redonnia's sissy! :D
thanks for the starbucks to dickson also :D

and to meiyi and fenella!
thank you!

and to claire.
a surprise chanced-upon.
hehee.
i hope her brother is alright now haha.

and to people who did visit me those few days...
thank you! :D

.....

one day i will get my degree.
and i will show you.

happy stuff

2009-01-31T23:07:00.003+08:00

back for an update..

those few days..

people came to visit..

samuel, fan zhi, sala, sissy in that sequence on one day.
and.. kelvin on the next day..

this week perhaps is my suay-est week for work.
was kinda pissed.

shan't elaborate.

anyway, it's over.

today ! :D

2S08 class outing!
first vist: mr lim's house!
i..
was late :X

no one really hurried me..
hehe.
i was walking halfway,
then saw the whole group of them walking over..

then afterwards, went to buy fruits for our fondue.
then we bought drinks also for him.

2nd stop : mr kwek's house!

we left mr lim's house late and saw another group of students approaching.
but our class strength is still stronger.
hoho.

yeah, mr kwek's house was so crowded.
his first batch, his second batch,
and his s1 came later.

we played a while with his kids and left.
fortunately, we left,
or s13 who was approaching would not have another space.
but still, 2S08 strength is still leading :D

third stop: mdm tang's house!

the kids are cute.
weiting cried when we left.
hehe.
so cute!

after that,
some of us went for our steamboat dinner.
a mini mini one.
hehe.

more to come for 2S08?

i love my class :D

:D

2009-01-22T23:47:00.003+08:00

whoa.

yesterday, wednesday..
went out with clique!
except winnie..

had lots of fun,
with great company,
it's always the case.

saw shogun.
what a small world?!
hehe.
the day before,
i was just telling him i would see him if we have fate.
then we really saw each other haha.

stephan and i had such a hard time picking our shoes and earrings that we were left with very little time to shop for clothes.

fortunately, at the later part,
joycelin accompanied me to shop.

and i got a top..
at a bargain price somemore :)

was really glad that sis absolutely loves the shirt i bought for her hehe.

today..
went to bugis again.
this time with kelvin.
because i needed to change the size for my shoes,
and my belt.

i kept telling him which are the more trendy clothes for guys.
then the shop owner told me they are for older guys.
and kelvin is a boy.
a kid.
haha.

nice time shopping.
guys clothes are so much easier to settle.

today i got myself a pair of shorts.
wanted to buy 2 tops,
first of which,
the shop owner wasn't around.
second of which,
i feel that i look really fat in that.

chinese new year resolution : lose weight!
again..
haha..

:D

2009-01-21T01:37:00.005+08:00

you know.. i suddenly became nostalgic about school and went to review the video for sala on teachers' day.

WE ARE THE SWEETEST PEOPLE and no one can replace that!

haha. i feel so touched all again..

and people, 2S08's blog is updated again :)

I guess yuanlin and I will take turns to update it frequently.
Hopefully, 2S08ians will not forget about it :)
I wrote the url on everyone's graduation letter :)
if anyone of you lost it, feel free to link from my blog :)

speaking of my blog,
the whole layout is really messy.
actually i have an lj already.
but it's still kind of difficult to change to that due to inconvenience.

anyway,
i went to play LAN with Shogun today.
hoho.
finally, my audition!

then i went out with mum at night.
bought some clothes..
buying again..
with clique tomorrow!
i miss clique!
see you girls!

and i wrote a compliment letter to G.
it was funny how my attempt to remain annoymous backfired.
haha.
well,
it's not a compliant letter anyway hehe.

:D

2009-01-19T22:56:00.003+08:00

IT'S A SMALL WORLD AFTER ALL AGAIN!!!!

WAH LAO!
3 INCIDENTS IN A ROW ALREADY OKAY!
AND IT IS DAY AFTER DAY!!!

WAH LAO!
EVERYTIME I LEARNT OF A NEW INCIDENT, I GROW HIGH!!!

WHAT A SMALL WORLD!!!!!!

A DAMN HAPPY DAY - 19 JAN 09....

alright, the first coincidence was H!
that macdonald mad man incident!

then, it was YW!
after so many days, i finally found out the links between us!

then, today, it's another H!
again, the unbelievable links!

HAHA!

then today, A showed me the compliment letter.
it was for us!
my name was included!
HURRAY!

I WAS SO HAPPY!

SERIOUSLY!!!
I PHOTOCOPIED A COPY FOR MYSELF!

working in the service industry,
nothing beats being appreciated!
much lest, i was a person who wants to be appreciated in the first place! :D

then,
okay, quite normal tone already..
3 people came to visit today.

first it was SALA!
he said he was standing behind me for 2 minutes but i was serving another customer.
and he said i looked very good or cool.
HOO HOO!

HOPE NEXT TIME CAN SEE HIM AGAIN!

secondly, it was roy.
yeah, the ROY.
hehe.
came to treat bubble tea,
instead of my STARBUCKS!
when i wanted to give him change,
he still wanted to hit me.
stupid idiot :p

oh and then before that, it was FZ!
accompanied me for dinner :)

then it was AGNES!
hehe. so happy because it was an unexpected visit! :D

ANOTHER HAPPY THING!

I FEEL A STRONG SURGE OF HAPPINESS!
I MANAGED TO CONVINCE A CUSTOMER TO SWITCH TO WHAT I AM PROMOTING!
when xinyi fails hehe..:x
THANK GOD I DID MY RESEARCH!

The customer seems like she has some attitude problem as well,
but service industry,
smile means everything.
hehe.

YES, TO MY DREAM,
I AM COMING,
WAIT FOR ME!

and to my colleagues,
i really enjoy your company!
not everyone, everywhere,
but,
you know who you are!
:D

actually, how nice could it be..
if we can just wait for the a level results indefinitely..

:D

2009-01-19T01:04:00.001+08:00

WAH LAO! IT'S A SMALL WORLD AFTER ALL!

INCIDENT AFTER INCIDENT!

SUCH A COINCIDENCE!

:(

2009-01-18T01:25:00.003+08:00

wah lao. i damn sad can.
haiz.
blog is not like an avenue which i can express my thoughts freely already.
just do not have that feel.

that is why i have been updating less and less frequently?

sighs.

money gone, heart ache.

sighs.

anyway, on a brighter note,
3 customers complimented me today.
was really happy :)

i sure hope God bless her also.
please God.

what else.

oh on wednesday night,
i went out with yuanlin, xinyi, cui cui, yvonne, agnes and wei qiang for overnight cycling.
damn cool.
we set of at 1130pm,
cycled from pasir ris to changi,
and stopped to see the airport barred by fences,
where those emo scenes are always taken.

then we saw cyclists coming out of a forest to the left.

then from changi to orchard.
and then to east coast park.
and i slept while the sun rose right in front of my eyes!
yuanlin did not call me because she wanna let me sleep hehe.

then cycled to sissy's college, but she already went inside for assembly.

then cycled to simei or bedok and then back to pasir ris.

i would think the night cycling trip is a little bit dangerous..

shan't elaborate more.

later sissy go tell tales on me :X

and yesterday,
i found out that,
hazel,
was actually the very girl,
who encountered some encounters with me!
it is such a small world out there lah!
seriously!

just like in dramas.
and i didn't know,
until she showed me her boyfriend's photo haha.

a world so small,
where everyone are actually friends hoho.

fly fly fly away...
sighs.

:D

2009-01-14T00:28:00.005+08:00

:D

let me recap..
firstly, we were talking there, complaining,
how come the jobs that the both of us find is always the same low pay and stuff..

then, we got turned off by the scary-looking stairway leading up to units.

then, i was turned off by the boredness and unfriendliness.

but now,

i love it!

:D

i'm learning soft skills :)

people, tell me if you want recontract your singnet broadband :)

oh yeah, i went back beloved college today.
i love the school.
mr lim calls me sarah heow :(

:)

2009-01-10T00:12:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i'm too quick to judge.
the vengeful streak in me never fails to rear its head.

if i demonstrate things in a different away,
the result turns up differently,
and in a better way :)

i'm glad i'm enjoying that environment more.

i think it's the time issue.

and i'm very lucky indeed to meet such kind seniors :)

and the kids, i love them man.
i asked shougun to buy some sweets.
and we distributed them to children like santa claus.
there was this indian little girl who thanked me very loudly.
i was damn happy.
gave her more.
then switched on the barney show for her.
the 3 kids then sat down obediently, eyes glued to the TV.
very cute! :D

i'm used to the change already i guess :)

(:

2009-01-05T23:05:00.003+08:00

woo hoo.. i forgot what i did for the rest of the days of 2008 already. oh yeah and in my last entry, i wrote some accounts wrongly. haha. failing memory. anyway, that friday, i went out with the guitar peeps to play LAN and it was on saturday, that i went to the little nyonya event haha... i didn't even record that..

next, from now onwards, i would like to introduce two categories..
recounts and sentiments...

anyway, yup, so fast forward to the first day of 2009.

RECOUNT
this year, i count down at home..
actually, i wanted to go out.
but come think of it, home is better.
the comforts of my sofa,
plus the entertainment from my TV.
isn't it better than squeezing with the rest of the crowd?
i will defintely think differently next year..

anyway, the next morning, or was it late morning that i woke up,
i got ready and went nebo at amk hub with bunny...
again, penguin was not recognizable..
hehe..
bunny was shocked upon learning her identity.
hehe.
penguin really changed a lot man, in terms of physical appearance.

then the 3 of us went into nebo and chatted.
the guys were late.
we spent a lot of time ordering food and stuff.

then wei zheng arrived one hour later.
david arrived half an hour before we are to go home!

dots right!
how can guys be later than girls!
even I was early =)

we had fun playing the board games.

and yeah, truly hope to meet up again :)

sorry penguin..
at first, i actually wanted to pang seh them last minute.
because i wanted to save money..
thankfully, bunny came to know about the matter and things were resolved.
but in the end, i still exceeded my budget for each trip.
yeah, seriously scrimping now.
i want to own a PSP. hehe.

went home and watched my little nyonya hehe.

then, watched with sis and mum the countdown show.
and yes, team little nyonya won!
there is no doubt lah.
look at that successful event which 4000-5000 people turned up at compass point!
for those mediacorp stars, people actually queued 5 hours.
i had done that.
for some boyband.
this time,
i merely went half an hour earlier.
hehe.

oh god.

that countdown show was on the 31st night!
shucks.
why is my memory all over the place?
oh my god..

anyway,
the next day,
2nd jan,
it was the class chalet.

before that, at close to 1,
i received meiyi's call.

i missed my alma matar.
so i rushed down.
and guess what,
i was supposed to meet up at pasir ris to buy the chalet stuff at 2pm..
haha.

and from mrs tan's expression,
i could see she was indeed grateful to hear from me.
she always is excited.
i like the way she links to the past.
i like the way she never fails to appreciate me,
whether i was still her student,
or now that i had graduated.

then i saw mdm tan lin.
i like that auntie also hehe.

then mr tai.
i saw junyang lao shi too!
but he was on the phone.
so i didn't call him..
well,
yy,
certainly leaves a lot of memories.

then i went off at 1.30.
before that, saw hui qun, kai xun and jeremy.

oh yeah, victoria..
when is our primary school gathering?

well, so yup, meiyi said i definitely will be late.
then i went home and got on standby mode.

once winnie calls, i will leave for the bustop and we can take the same bus together.
but she wasn't ready until 2pm, the meeting time yeap jun set.

so i played my CS.

after the LAN outing with the guitar peeps,
had been craving for LAN.
hehe.

speaking of LAN,
i suddenly remembered about the outing with shit, sam and yeo!
the bowling cum arcade one!
and i got 2 consecutive strikes and a spare :)
but the winner was yeo :)
another story altogether,
i shall not digress any further..

so well, most of what i wanna blog for chalet will be under sentiments.

fast forward to...

5th jan..
EAST COST PARK CYCLING.
a prelude to the night cycling.
supposed to be a class event but response was not good.
ah well.

after that accident and 8 years of not touching the bicycle,
i'm glad i still could cycle well :D
memory's not failing for this skill..
because i learnt it young...

before the cycling thing,
i met up with chin wei.
wanted to play LAN,
but those days of meditation at the chalet had cured my addictiveness.
so we went to window shop instead.
saw many designer furniture but they are too expensive!
cannot get it for my bedroom!

and yeah, hopefully,
my study room turned bedroom,
will be ready,
by CNY :D

getting late,
blog about my sentiments in the next entry!
and seriously,
i don't know when will that be :D

...

2008-12-29T23:44:00.003+08:00

a recount.

thursday, xmas eve.

went out with clique except yuanlin..
got stuck with joyce at the ion.
in the end the two of us were late.
joyce gave us turkey..
and i used a lot of chilli to cover the taste..
i don't like the rawness hehe..
the chilli rocks.. hehe..

friday, i forgot already?
i think i went for some furniture shopping at defu?
or was it saturday?
memory's failing...

sunday..
i went to bowl with shit, sam and yeo.
pretty lucky this time round.
because i don't usually get a 3 digit score.
yeah i'm lousy, i know.
then we went arcade - my love.

oh yeah, saturday,
it's guitar outing!
how could i forget.
well, we went swensens..
it has been such a long time since i indulge myself in such treats.
sighs. i spent 13 bucks there despite choosing one of the cheapest meals.
yeah i'm extremely poor.
then next we went to play lan.
and i'm craving for audition again.

sighs..

i have been trying to save.

but when it comes to arcade and games,
i never fail to spend.

no more lunch and dinner trips unless it is at hawker centres.....

and yeah, today,
went to ikea again.
never fail to go home empty whenever i go ikea.

so very soon,
i need a job...

and a higher-paying one at that..

sighs.

i wanna go count-down leh.
with great people..
haiz.

...

2008-12-24T00:46:00.003+08:00

aw well...
the hard-hearted feeling and the lines i have rehearsed just before i go to bed didn't come in handy. because the other party representing her was so nice, i did not really say the crucial word to suan back her. sighs. why is it that things always don't go according to what i have planned?

anway, hopefully, tommorrow is my last day. i know i won't earn a lot also lah. maybe a 40 dollars for all my work? sighs. just my luck to get this kind of job.

bella-ly.. haha. magnet for trouble. i love twilight. so interesting. hehe. but to think i was a little bit scared reading alone despite watching the movie when i was reading certain parts. stupid me..

well..

today, went to sam's youth centre for his supposed-to-be chirstmas party. he COOKED for us. oh my god. i cannot believe it. his mum says she merely supervised. really? hehe. but the food is really great. thanks sam. i like the youth centre. nice environment to mug and to have fun =)

oh ya, and friday, i went to pass penguin the souvenir i had got for her. and i ran there because her bus was coming. as i felt the wind carressing my hair, touching my face, i craved for a run. hehe. i ran and ran and decided it was not enough even after penguin was gone. so got terence to run with me. many thanks terence. always so steady, ready bom pee pee. he guided me along the route from my house to serangoon and back. hehe.

but the worst thing is.. i lost my guitar pendent during the run! it was my favourite necklace given to me by mucus on my 17th birthday =( i saw it flinging here and there while making a dash to my destination in serangoon. sighs. just my luck.

seems like december is just not my month after a series of unfortunate events...

rants

2008-12-22T23:48:00.005+08:00

upset about the accusations made against me...

:(

or more of :@

well....

you didn't tell me in advance that i cannot bring my friends.
and this is like the second (major) time, or the third (major + minor) time you are lecturing me about something you did not inform in advance. it's so unjust.

and another you, damn you. 8 tiles, each of 30cm long, how does it obstruct the passageway, you tell me? a man the size of santa claus can definitely push a trolley past with great ease lah. how is that obstructing your business huh? just green-eyed that your business is bad? pull or hair to vent your frustration and yeah, the most basic thing is just to inform me and whether or not i am at fault, i would apologize politely what! what an idiotic person who just cannot handle things! when i invited my friends to sit inside, i was chided for letting strangers in. when i asked my friend to sit outside, i was lectured for blocking the passageway and not using my common sense?! why is it that people tending stalls from that country always complain at the slightest of things?!

it's not like i didn't keep my promise. i had told XY in advance i could only make it for the morning shift. and the sms sent to me was like why i didn't tell her i cannot make it at night. with an annoyed touch added to it. sighs. why do i deserve this huh.

i went early and left late. none is appreciated.

i tried my best to market the products, but the sales just refuse to increase.
what can i do?

i even got my own friends to come and buy the products.
although only one bought..
but, was a thank you ever said?

instead, when the products got lost unknowingly,
clueless of whether there was even some fundamental problems with the stock-taking,
i got negative pay on top of my meagre amount of pay each day.
and wait let me add on, with no commision, not even a 50 cents increase in pay per hour for public holiday eve..

i got bad flu today.
was i appreciated?

never mind,
i am now more determined to get my degree...

yuanlin, are you back already?
i wanted to talk to you so much.
and i know, you definitely will 100 % guarantee plus chop come to my store and support me..
yes. absolutely sure =)
and i really miss you :(

one day i will be in the managment...
and i will treat all my subordinates the way they deserve to be treated.

...

2008-12-18T00:20:00.002+08:00

the phase of life i hate the most.
yup.

not if i am in control.
but i am not.

one day, i will.
and to my dream i will come...

well, what a day.
a lousy first impression i guess...

thank you sam, hock ming and kelvin.
after talking to you all,
i feel so much more able to look forward to the next day's work.

hehe.

my friends rock!

...

2008-12-16T23:32:00.002+08:00

decided to blog properly..
when i said that, i mean as in go into greater detail instead of pure listing.
fickle mindness at play again.
but well...

right.
so went with joyce to her place of interest first.
supposed to meet at 1.20.
i reached at 1.40.
and for the first time, i waited for her for 20 minutes more!
haha.
then saw samuel and richard there.

then we spent a lot of time searching for THE place,
when it was just a turn to the left.
never mind, great time walking, although i have blisters all over due to that pair of shoes.
then, fickle mindness again,
we walked here and there in search of cheap and healthy food.
finally went to kopitiam..

then went to collect my laptop.
like finally.
along the way,
we got free mini starbucks coffee =D

then went all the way to kovan to pass my laptop to auntie..
then we travel to dhoby ghuat.
then met up with stephan.
she wrapped the present =p yeah, xinyi, if you are reading, stephan wrapped the present..
and we went to shop.
spent a lot of time at a particular shop.
but didn't manage to end up with any buys.

then waited for xinyi, yuanlin they all to come.
and for the first time, yuanlin is late!
hehehehee..

twilight damn nice!
i really wanna read the book now!

after the movie, we went arcade to play a little while..
hehe.

i love arcade!

and when i came back home,
was told that i would get money from MOE..
YAY.
money can drop from the sky!
thank you wo de shen.. :)

i wanna make more money now!
and buy everything on my wishlist!
then go for an overseas shopping spree again.
and then make more money again!

to my dream,
i hope i have enough to keep aside..
now =D

and i've just discovered,
we are taking far too few photos clique.
next time must take more! =D

2008-12-13T22:18:00.003+08:00

happy birthday chian yuanlin!
i know there aren't any surprise this year..
but..
hope you like what we had for you!

don't feel like uploading the rest of my Shanghai photos.
haha..

a short update...

basically, after the marathon,
i only stayed at home for ONE day.
the very next day.

other than that,
i went out every day...

with car, with shit, with clique, with some 2S8ians and liyan.

and i am sun scorched.
after the sentosa trip yesterday
with uneven sun tans.

and...

i still like swimming..
i realise...
haha..

i hope to slack.
and then to work..

but it seems like,
appointments are never ending..

Shanghai + Batam + Marathon

2008-12-08T23:41:00.004+08:00

alright i give up.
the photos will just be here.

my nieces and nephews! from doh to soh =D

leader! full of leadership qualities at an age of 5! damn cute!

like me, they love chicken wings! no wonder we are family =D

no one wants to take with me so i stood alone and smiled =)

i was amazed by a phone booth, one which i only see on tv.

i guess i do look pretty nerdy in specs?

really lazy to post other photos.

so tomorrow shall be the day!

if i'm not lazy =p

finally. here to blog....

well, was away from singapore from 27th to 3rd,

and then 4th to 6th.

and on the 7th, went for my marathon.

basically that's all i guess....

yeah yeah.

SHANGHAI TRIP

Accomodation

well, i would rate a 7 stars.

a 6-star hotel is one like the lijiang accomodation for the pinoeer batch.

an entire block that is specially catered to the few of you,

with a maid that is entirely yours to boss around.

with superb breakfast,

and basically service that is equivalent to a 5-star hotel.

and a 7-star accomodation?

nah, it's not a hotel.

it is my cousin's house.

it matches that of a hotel's standard absolutely.

just his ground floor alone,

from his first living room to the kitchen,

is the size of my entire 4-room HDB flat.

there are still the study room,

a second living room, a bedroom, 2 toilets, a toys room and an wadrobe room.

i am damn impressed with his house seriously.

there is still a garage, a small garden, a mini playground and a BBQ pit. the whole house overlooks a small stream. haha. nice scenary.

perfect place for running.

but i was too lazy haha.

his house is like a 3 storey bungalow, don't know the actual name though.

there is a clubhouse which has an indoor swimming pool - which means the water is warm, pefect for autumn, and an indoor grocery shop.

all the houses there are tende by security officers who salute you whenever you drive your car past.

just like condo mangament.

my room shared with sissy is fantastic.

it belonged to my nieces actually.

just like the one i read in story books.

with a window directly facing me when i sleep.

if it was not frosted,

i would be able to see the stars and moon at night.

like a hotel.

because there are 4 maids in the house.

as soon as i stepped out of the bedroom,

my bed is made.

the soiled towels and clothes and collected and washed.

toilet rolls are replaced.

and as soon as we sat down comfortably on the dining chairs,

a very fulfiling breakfast is served.

there are always left-overs because they always over-served.

a 7-star hotel because,

it is a home to begin with.

one which gives you the feeling of warmth and family joy.

i enjoy the nights when our 2 families spend our time in the second living room,

playing wii with my nieces and nephews.

seeing how they lost to my sissy.
or listening to nini's gibberish :)

the few days there really made us closer.

and some nights, my neices would come to our room and tell us about the happenings in school.

hehe.

2nd neice wanted me to change my msn nick to "I'm in a 6-star hotel right now", when she saw my friend's msn nick.

haha. but i think it deserves 7-stars :D

and yeah, their car is fantastic as well.

there are 3 TVs in the car.

you can watch DVDs or listen to the radio.

this is especially useful because the congestion in Shanghai is really bad.

and yeah, they have this chaffefeur,

who made a funny statement that cannot stop sissy from laughing even up to now.

hehe.

yeah.

eventful happenings..

SHOPPING!

got scammed too.

lazy to repeat.

beacuse i have told so many people already.

got some stuff that i really liked.

but shopping is never enough..

i really hope to go there again!

reached singapore on the 3rd in the evening.

on the 4th, went to my beloved college with xinyi to get my 5 bucks.

then in the afternoon, went batam.

BATAM TRIP

basically, it was boring in Batam this time round.

because xiao jiu and bobby are both so busy!

wrong timing man.

i just managed to cut my hair.

no manicure, no foot reflexlogy and my spa!

stayed at home all day and watched dvds =.=

had great meals though.

seafood feast for both nights =)

and the weather in Batam is much more bearable as compared to Shanghai's :)

eh. on the first night, playing bowling actually.

and i was the best player among us four. hoho.

that's why..

i'm hoping to go to Batam next week if everything goes well.

hehe. last trip before i start working =.=

POST-MARATHON

and yeah when i came back on the 6th at evening,

packed my stuff and met yuanlin and xinyi at ps and i was late for an hour :X

hahahahaha.

i just feel xinyi will be frustrated leh.

haha. made them wait so long.

we bought breadtalk and then bus-ed down to yuanlin's house.

we had chips and instant noodles and then watched city of ember.

oh yeah, also web-cammed with joycelin.

our convo was really funny hehe.

then we KO-ed at around 1, but yuanlin's blog says 1.30. hehe.

xinyi actually wanted to ton whole night,

but i was really dog-tired, and had a marathon the next day so i said i needed rest.

hehe.

MARATHON

yuanlin woke me up at 4 i guess.

but i slept on, hugging the piglet we gave her for her birthday last year.

hehe.

then woke up after xinyi is done with washing up and then we were out of the house at 4.50.

along the way, we camwhored because the roads were so quiet.

the journey to the starting point was more than an hour.

and i waited for hock ming, the sponsor of my marathon for quite some time.

as a result,

we started the marthon when the timer had already started.

half way through the marthon,

we ran past yuanlin's house, and i realised we have walked around 8km to the starting point.

hahaha.

so in total i should have covered 21.2 + 8 = 29.2 KM!

felt a bit regretful of not participating for the full marathon after i saw people getting the finisher t-shirt. sighs.

since whatever the distance,

i also did not train...

haiz.timing is really lousy.

soles and whole body is damn sore.

oh yeah along the way, there were free bananas also!

and thank you to my supporters, my clique, for coming down to support me!

and yuanlin and xinyi for waking up so early with me!

we lunched together, and presented joycelin her birthday gift.

we have spent time decorating it in yuanlin's house and hope she loves it hehe.

was really drained.

came home, bathed and slept from 3 to 645.

and then slept from 1000 to 1145, and then to 8am.

haha.

and know what i dreamt of my a level grades.

1 or 2 Ds, 1 or 2 Es, 2 Bs.

i think it is quite realistic.

but i hope miracles happen.

oh yeah, in shanghai,

i also dreamt that,

i have not sat for the A levels and after the holiday in Shanghai,

i have forgotten everything about BCMEGP!

thankfully a dream..

hehe.

cutie cute nieces and nephews.

:D
and will remember to take photo with cousin in batam next time =X

2008-11-27T02:15:00.003+08:00

just seen the prom photos from tim.
both tim and sam took my photos while i was sleeping!
so unglam la!

and i didn't reaslie my curl has already straightened when i came back this morning.
no wonder dad didn't say anything.
chey.

people, photos from tim,
i will only post after i come back from my trips.

happy waiting =)

prom

2008-11-27T01:31:00.003+08:00

whoa. i guess the busy days are over.
or no.
there are a couple to meet.
a few more activities to do.
hehe.
after that, i shall rest at home every single day, playing my games and slacking my life away.
or no.
got to pick up a skill.
got to earn my keep.
arghs.
haha.
i chose it.

well.
change format now.

dear diary,
sat was the worst. i shopped for the full solid day. went out with bun in the early part of the day and ended up sleeping in one of the shoes shops. but halfway to our destination, met felicia and vesta. couldn't recognize vesta though; she called out to me. then followed them to ps and found sin ying working there. that pang-seh kia i so miss! and today she ps us again. haha. well, hope will be able to go out with you soon lor. well, bun and i had ya kun for dinner. and it was great! i really enjoy kaya toast with teh tarik! and half boiled eggs! fantastic combination :) after that, went with mum to shop for stuff, and wait for sissy to be released from work. didn't get anything though. came back home, talked to elaine, for like 2 and a half hours! just a few hours more to my record, held by lin. hehe. i guess that's what buddies are. never running out of things to say. can't wait to see the poly peeps after their exams end!

sun. i went out again. with red this time. haha. we went to the book fest which i told ying xian i will never go. haha. and then we went to shop. most of the time was spent on suaning her in sasa and chatting over dinner though. then, saw a pair of metallic silver shoes which would match my clutch for prom but didn't buy. and yeah, i got back with no purchases. but shopping with red was great. next time should shop with TFC =) well, sneaked out of the house at 11 plus at night. while i was at the bus stop, realised i forgot to bring the very thing we were supposed to deliver. made bun wait for me for so long as a result. told two white lies. first, told penguin not to wait for me on msn and not sleep, so that she could receive us when we arrive. second, asked for her address to send her xams card because we have forgotten which floor she lives on. haha. my lies were flawless though and she couldn't sense anything amiss. later, bun let the cat out when she realised penguin was getting too smart. hahaha. don't
know rainie or bebe was letting out barks when we walked past her house. fierce dogs. anyway, sweet surprise right? we took the second last bus home. hehehe. finally, gave penguin a suprise le =) speaking of birthdays, joyce was pretty much disappointed. well, i think i should not multi-task at times. i do type long messages if i was solely smsing. hope to make it up to her after my marathon because i was really busy on her actual day.

mon. i went to have lunch with the lols. chicken rice. liyan came in a pretty dress/gown? i don't know leh. hehe. but she was very pretty. and she had dressed so formally for the special occasion - eating in a hawker centre! hahaha. just joking. then there was this man who came and collect the left-overs from our plates. it was disgusting. he took the chicken skins and liyan's unfinished rice. eeek. he is able-bodied and i think if he managed to find a job, he wouldn't have to starve himself and resort to this. hmmm. after the lunch, went to highlight my hair. got treatment, which is a different kind of treatment that i expected. wasted money for the treatment. i said i wanted obvious brown. unfortunately, it is too obvious and now sissy calls me an ah lian because it is too golden. arghs. i should have stick on to my intial choice of colour. got my pair of shoes in heartland mall. was supposed to go out at night, but due to some miscommunication, shopping spree with sherlin was cancelled. i rested at home that night. watched a lot of tv. hehe. great life. then even later, went mucus's house and borrowed her shawl and took back my tube. wanted to return keli her construction papers but she was turning in already. went home and left my mask on my face while i turned in for the night. hehe.

the big day!
well, i was dreading to get up. got to paint my nails and buy some stuff. in the end, my nails were very haphazardly done. haha. i had the anything attitude because nail art, also a form of art, is just not my cup of tea. then went to compass point next. just when i was in the train, realised i forgot to bring my handphone. went back home to retrieve it. stupid me. wasted a lot of time. in the end, no time to buy my necklace. fortunately, was already wearing a back-up piece. went to a salon with stephan. went there to do our hair and make-up. i must say my hair stylist cum make up artist is really professional. i showed him my dress and he knew what kind of hair style and make up he should help me put. and i think he looks like leon. hehe. at first, when i see my curled hair, i was quite worried as i looked really mature. but thankfully, it was bunded up with just a few strands lying on my shoulder. hehe. next time if there are any other formal events, i want to get this hair stylist back man. hehe. he shared some tips with me as well. anyway, another hair stylist actually smsed and asked if i was happy with my highlighted hair. it is tough messaging in chinese so i replied very slowly hehe. what good service salons offer.

fortunately, yiyi was there to help me with my dressing and stuff. after we are done, winnie and joyce came down and we cabbed down to the mountain. didn't take as many photos as i wanted because my camera is real sucky! and yeah, the food ok la. way better than last year. the programmes would have been better if it was fairer.

after prom, i was torn between going to sam's youth centre or post prom, where we will be going to a club. clubbing! that was one of my birthday events but because of some unforseen circumstanes again, i didn't go :( hence after knowing that most of my class peeps are going, i seriously feel like going as well! in the end, sasin and i decided to go to post prom with my class and cabbed down to sam's territory later in the night, or rather pre-dawn. walked all the way down the mountain to clarke quay. my new heels inflicted some more fresh wounds on my already wounded feet. and when we finally reached out destination, class peeps say they will not be touching alcohol, makes no sense to pay so much to have a feel of what a club is like. so in the end we never go :( :( :( :( it is no fun if i were to go with sasin only. i want the crowd. so all of us went to 7 11 and got ourselves alcohol. my first time drinking alchohol though. i believe i should hold my liqour well just like my dad. hehe .but it's only 5% alchohol. next, we let the sea breeze brush over our faces and it was a really fantastic feeling. i love the feel of nature.
so, at around 2.10am, joyce, winnie, sasin and i left for the youth centre. reached sam's place and i was really exhausted. watched high school musical one and fell asleep half way. due to my forgetfulness, my clothes were left in stephan's house. and yeah. sorry to sam again. yup
, it was really uncomfortable sleeping in a dress. came home at around 730 am. bathed straightaway and slept like a log from 830 to 2, although there were noise.
in the afternoon, went to service my lappy with sam and then went to dinner with some 4A girls and mr gek at night. again, cunning gek tricked us, and treated us again. haha. after that, went to hougang mall to find mum.

and yeah, regarding the prom, there were many people whom i cannot recognize because they were so pretty! hahaha. shan't name them because there are just too many people.

yeah. i didn't regret coming for prom. oh yeah. i exceeded my prom budget though. i spent over 250 bucks for this. must be my complacency after buying a dress that is below my budget haha.

well. i will be on the plane afterwards.

see ya dear diary.

2008-11-22T00:25:00.002+08:00

YAY!

SHOP, but never exercise..
and my marathon's on the 7th....

anyway, due to some unforseen circumstances, i met up with joycelin, winnie, liyan, sherlin and stephan only at 3 or 4 plus.
haha. they actually met at 1145.
can you believe how late i was?
then on the train, i was a bit worried.
they are leaving at 5.
i was afraid i couldn't get my prom dress.
so on the train, was smsing people to get them to accompany them after 5.
in the end, car agreed to come.
i knew i can always count on car.
forever so steady.
red could come only at 7 or 8.
and shit replied me after i reached orchard,
saying that she was in orchard!
so in the end car did not come.

then i got lost while going to food republic.
i refuse to ask passer-bys for help because it is extremely embarrassing.
got there after half an hour.
should i know sherlin is so steady,
i wouldn't have smsed frantically away.
hehe.

got my prom dress.
shan't reveal the price just yet.
hehe. but it's 2 times below my budget =)
bought some tops as well.

saw a pair of pretty shoes,
but they hurt my feet quite badly if you were to wear it for long.
hehe.

yay! more shopping sprees tomorrow!
must shop with my mum so that she can pay more!
=D

...

2008-11-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

whoa.

FREEDOM?

haven't I been dreaming of that?

yet,
i don't feel exactly delightful.
maybe because i know i won't do well.

and also..

tonnes of things to do,
before i can really RELAX.

arghs sians.

not doing well,
it does eat an amount of me.
i thought i could totally forget about it.
but it does come back and sting me at night.

sians.

and my marathon this time.
i think i gonna walk for up to 75 percent of it already.

roars.

anyway,
today watched high school musical 3!
with LAOs!
and li jie.

yup, i really envy the kind of high school life they enjoy.
why can't we model after them?
whoa. just fun and studies.
since everyone in that class got to an university in the end.

for their last musical,
they gave in their best,
because that's the last time they are spending time together as a class..

and in singapore,
why must every departure in every institution,
ends with some major exam that could change a person's mood?

arghs never mind.

anyway,
whenever i hear xmas songs now,
i actually want to shout.
GOD!
i wish time could stop.
for the 6th year this time,
grant me my wish will you?

if you think this is an emo entry,
this is not.
yeah.

2008-11-18T17:21:00.003+08:00

YEAH!

freedom is 2 days away!

actually, i kinda enjoy life since bio paper 3 ended.
hehe.
and i enjoy today even more.

doing minimal work,
chatting,
playing the com.

yeah!

because this is paper 1,
i can afford not to try and cram stuff.

i love life seriously!

:D

if only our education minstry understands.
if only the world understands.

life like this,
is enjoyed by all i guess.

but in the population,
there has always got to have some people,
who strive to be one step ahead others,
and hence stimulating this dog-eat-dog race.

so much for a better quality of life.
at the expense of our higher standard of living.

hoho.

...

2008-11-15T23:02:00.003+08:00

whoa.
i'm really holiday mood already.
shit!
i still got my bio!
please la!
STUDY!

well, these few days,
there was this pricking pain,
on my foot.
i thought it was some metal stuff hidden in my shoe.
yesterday, mum and sis wore my shoes and mum said, : it should be a needle!

to our horror,
she turned my shoes over and true enough, there was a thumb tack stuck onto my shoe!

to think i walked around for so many days on that shoe!
and i even ran in that!
hahahaha.

too bad my mum threw the thumb tack away..

=)

2008-11-14T22:19:00.001+08:00

whoa. a lot of people finished their papers today already.

and i'm still left with 2 more!

sians.

well, these days, been asking a lot of people.
kill myself intentionally or just do your best and see what you can get for the remaining papers.
so far, only one was more slanted to the first reason.

well,
and i think although i wasn't focused and was feeling too demoralised in my course of studying for the remaining 2 months,
i still did study.
so i just couldn't take it lying down if i just failed intentionally.

just wait and see..

well.....

anyway, went to run yesterday.
stamina wasn't as bad as i thought =DDDDD
yay.
must have more belief!

and....

one day before my chem p2,
bin bin came to my house.
she is just so adorable =)
i cannot resist not to play with her.
i just love the role-playing with her =)

yay after a's,
i'm gonna PLAY.

the journey

2008-11-08T16:55:00.002+08:00

sorry people.
whatever you say, i'm still feeling the same.

math paper 2.
finally.
i could say.
this is my best.
not because i have done well.
in fact, i already know i got like 15 marks gone.
that's excluding careless mistakes.

my best because.
i persevered through.....

.........

.........

.........

~ if you avoid distractions in life, you'll go very far..
~ don't rest on your laurels and continue striving for better results!

i was packing my stuff when i saw these comments.
the thing about getting distracted,
so very true.
the one who wrote this knows me well.
haha.

econs and chem next week.
damn slack the whole of today.
yesterday very unproductive.
arghs!

if i want to repeat,
i must kill myself in the chem or bio papers.

i don't want to do it on econs.

i hate this feeling!

2008-11-06T17:23:00.004+08:00

Doesn't matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause this race is all about
Believing in yourself

i guess.

i am still lacking.

the most ingredient to the recipe of success.

BELIEF.

math.
10 marks.
i kind of give up.
in the end i regret.

biology.
genetic crossing.
5 marks.
i was right already.
don't think so much and pen down your answer.
and the marks will rightfully belong to you.

chemistry.
was already right!
went to cancel my answer.
and there isn't time to write another answer.

sarah goh ar sarah goh.

sometimes.
i just feel like ending it all.
and repeat.
actually, many times.

but handing in a blank paper requires courage as well.
and my stance is still neither here nor there.

the papers so far have been okay.
to the on-the-ball student,
in this final lap.

if you lock yourself in your room to study,
if you go to school every day,
does it mean that you are on the ball?
that's why i'm perceived as a mugger.
even when i was stoning for days on end.
HA.

demoralisation ( if this word exists) ?

my negative attitude killed me.

sighs.

now i know.
jc.
so easy to lose focus.

i hate it.
and i always say it.
not fully prepared for A's.

it sucks to think that preparation for econs is even more minimal.

shit.

if, if, if..
i would gladly accept.

then?
you chose it.

stop complaining.

GP :(

2008-11-03T18:10:00.004+08:00

i feel disappointed.
in the latest essays that i have written, it's like i have been passing and getting slightly better than a pass.

pass as in the actual 50 percent pass.

i think i have improved.

and i think given that,
i should be able to score perhaps a C in my essay component.

and what the hell?

first time,
for the start of this year,
i had butterlies in my stomach,
for an examination.

half an hour into the paper,
i was still torn between choosing a few questions.
my fickle mindedness at play, i wrote a few points for this question,
and then went back to the previous question.

in the end,
i thought,
since i have prepared so much for Science,
go for it.

and i committed suicide.

just yesterday,
i was telling myself never to do Science with morality.
becuase i couldn't totally agree with the easier approach.

in the end,
my essay ended up like a piece of disjoined and childish writing.

i so regret can.

i wanted to see just how much i had improved.
and yet it ended up like that.....:'(

if i saw mdm tang just after my paper 1,
i think i will cry in her arms.
but anyway,
was really delighted to see 2S08's mother.

repeat.
that's what my whole mind was filled with for the whole of today after my GP.

math tomorrow.
a subject i always did not bother,
because i'm always stuck doing the question.
and i gave up too easily.
damn easily.

mr kwek's words.
i know he was just trying to encourage.
i want to do well too.
but with careless mistakes here, there, everywhere.
and some conceptual errors,
i absolutely have no confidence of tomorrow.

if i repeat,
i hope to do it back in school.
but,
i guess i may not qualify to repeat.

sighs.

people reading,
don't feel demoralised.
this is just me.
don't let this affect you.

2008-11-02T00:50:00.001+08:00

JUDGEMENT DAY IS JUST TOMORROW!

i hate the feeling of not unleashing my full potential :(

please and i sincerely implore,
send me heading off to my next check point.

thank you.

2008-10-23T17:37:00.001+08:00

go and study dumbass.

2008-10-23T17:15:00.002+08:00

i felt overwhelmed today.

ps if i showed anyone face these few days.

a bit of a mood swing these days.

2008-10-19T21:48:00.003+08:00

WAH LAO! I REGRET NOT TAKING MORE PHOTOS CAN!
:'( :'( :'( !!!!!!!

i didn't take photo with wei qiang because my memory card was full and i forgot about it afterwards!
i didn't take photo with ms yeow although she is leaving when i did see her with a group of kakis!
i didn't take photo with mr tan th although i saw him as well...
and these are not all.
the guitar peeps as well...

:'( :'(

why didn't i think of the consequences whenever i effect an action!
just simply shove it aside and regret later!
arghs!

well, regrets aside. i hope i will get to take photos with them all this week. :')
---------- ----------

whoa just for stuff like that, i'm stuck online for how long already?
why do i have so many time wasters?
and i hate it when people say i'm hardworking.
and yet i can't perform.
i know i am not.
because i'm not focused whenever i'm studying.

how many more days left.

how many chapters have i completed?

shit.

2008-10-14T16:10:00.003+08:00

what is wrong with you.
how many more days.

slacked.

why do i feel so sian?

others can afford to relax because they are there already.

you are miles away.

and yet you are always complaining.

you want it to come true don't you?

put in the effort!

wow.

at this rate.
i am really going to die.
and retain.

...

2008-10-14T16:02:00.001+08:00

i just don't feel like mugging.

:)

2008-10-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

whoa. an email i have received...
i think most of this is so true.
i know, before anyone says anything,
the thing that is most untrue is point number 5.
ha.
well..
some more untrue parts la..
but overall, quite true =)

CANCER

The Protector Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.

the extremely imperfect being.
like the water tossed,
words spoke fast, never erased.
actions executed swift, never eradicated.
etched.
ingrained.
so much for the tit for tat principle.
so much for the pride.

wow.
was trying again today to activate my emo-feel liguistic ability.
guess i failed terribly this time around.
no sadness.
no problems.
just random thoughts.
perhaps that explains my failed attempt.hehe.

and..
CHOMP CHOMP on WED!
WOO HOO!

sasi has given me the green signal to invite people.

shall go ask some others tomorrow =)

:(

2008-10-12T15:35:00.002+08:00

i wish i was a cockroach.

or rather i possess its attitude.

time is running short.

cannot feel demoralised already.

yet....

.......

wow. i can't believe you said that.
hoho.
sometimes, keeping mute works better.

love 2s08 loads

2008-10-05T16:56:00.003+08:00

after reading blogs of my friends',
i feel the feeling of detachment again..

ah..

on the 16th, i shall blog another short entry entirely on my 2S08 family.

I LOVE 2S08!

from a class, to a class i like, to a class i love, a family.

2S08 rawks!

may all of us do well tomorrow!
may all of us make it to the university together!

:D

2008-10-04T20:36:00.002+08:00

problems?
just random thoughts while i'm day-dreaming.
haha.
not problems bah.

well..

i love 2s08!
i am so gonna miss this class of wonderful people after we graduate.
seriously, 2s08 has been the best class i have ever had in my whole academic life.
yup. i just have more in common with these great pals.

and LOL gang.
haha.
although we talk more than we study,
or rather i am trying to change,
i like us man.
it's all the talking that made studying less stressful.
but hey, the a's is coming and let's not talk too much already ok?

yesterday, watched yi qie wan mei.
i can sympathized with felicia chin's character.
beauty.
ha.
i despise people who refuse to befriend with others just because of looks.
haha.
anyway, that was a great episode, with a heart-wrenching ending.
well..

yay..
bird nest! bird nest!
ready already, terence?

...

2008-09-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

actually..

is it,

trust?

aw well. to my dear elaine..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hope you will have your wish fulfilled next year =)

...

2008-09-27T00:06:00.002+08:00

right.
after the call from old friend,
i suddenly miss those long hours on the phone again.
the heart-to-heart talk,
the updates of bestest buds lives.

whoa.

so unlike of life in jc.
especially now.

arghs.

everytime my mind starts to wander,
it's hard to bring me back to focus.

or have i ever been focused?

JC changed me.

positively minimal, negatively maximum.
haha.

...

2008-09-22T01:10:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAR on 21st sep!

yeah. was supposed to be a surprise. but i guess after repeated celebrations, we all just know that something sneaky is going on. no whatever surprise that we can come up with often ended up as something lame?

well, anyway celebrated car and elaine's birthdays together. i think elaine's surprise was not a pleasant one after all.. hehe..

well, so the real surprise for car was that mr gek actually came down. Such a long time since i met my teacher. was quite taken aback he didn't ask about my results? i guess he knows. and someone must have told him. haha. just as well. arghs. i regard results as a taboo issue now.

and sorry to SGH. i arranged for this celebration after i got notice that one of us couldn't make it for our meeting. am not lying here. i really reached home at 10 plus.

glad to have seen all my bestest buds that day. :)

then on friday, went to the gym.

saw the shuai ge lao shi. i told the rest. and joycelin waved to him. afterwards, he walked over to where we were and asked me how we knew him. hoho. he talked to me! hahahaha. i'm no hua chi la. but whoa. he goes to gym to train up his muscles. hehe. how did we know you? the most charming teacher in the college! how can anyone miss you?

oppps. sounds pretty much like a hua chi still. arghs. anyway, my personal favourite teacher award still goes to sala =)

wow. why is it that i always spend more than half an hour online? off i'm going. ta-ta.

2008-09-18T22:04:00.001+08:00

i like to treat people the way they treat me.

if you are kind to me, there's no way i will treat you shabbily.

TO MY DEAREST SISSY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
YOU ARE FINALLY 17!

=)

2008-09-15T19:38:00.003+08:00

when misunderstandings are not cleared,
people get too defensive,
and eventually this calls for an end to the relationship.
especially so for relationships with the sensitive ones.

ha.

kinda glad.

i did the right thing. =)

...

2008-09-12T20:01:00.003+08:00

hoho. since most of my friends are penning down something with regard to the prelims results, i shall follow suit.. :)

well, didn't do well as usual.

i suprised myself at econs though..
and yes it was pure luck.

the others...
were sucky....
GP kind of maintain albeit my percentage dropped a little.
Bio; improved though i want to see more improvement.
Chem and Maths same percentage this time round.
Maths dropped.
and that was the subject that made me emo a while that day..

haha. though i didn't work hard for it,
didn't expect myself to fail so badly.
sorry to those who i showed face to.
hehehe.

but it was quite easy for me to return back to my normal self i guess.

and yeah.
never mind for that.
hope i will gain the momenteum bah..
jiayou jiayou.
and to all 2s08 dearies too..

and yeah, today brought my photo to some of 2S08ians sign on it.
and the messages they have penned down just made me feel so touched?
hehehe..

yeah yeah..
let's all jiayou together!
must support each other!
hehe ;D
i love my class =)

...

2008-09-09T20:52:00.003+08:00

why am i always at the mercy of insignificant stuff?

last lap.

go or die.

wah lao.

focus!

focus!

focus!

arghs.

wandering mind.

=D

2008-09-07T16:40:00.003+08:00

YES!

STANDARD CHARTERED MARATHON!

WOO~

but i wanna run with shifu...
arghs!
how come different timings one!
arghs!

and happy birthday to..
my MAMA!
=D!
and wee fong!

and oh yes..
red gave me my belated present exactly 2 months after my birthday!
so..
wanna acknowledge..
last 3rd present - air mailed from lin!
last 2nd present - tofu from red and her xiao mei (forgot how to spell her name =p)!
last present - MARATHON REGISTRATION FEES! =D

=(

2008-09-06T15:03:00.000+08:00

congrats to mr sala for winning the most caring teacher award from NIE. =) for your information, it is actually very presetigious because only 11 out of 2000 nominations were chosen.

saw sala on tv last night and kept jumping non stop.
really happy for him..

well,
if i were to blog this yesterday, you would definitely see the emotions.

but now,
sighs.

holidays is ending.
what have i been doing?

it seems like, i can neither study like before,
regardless of whether it is at home or in school..

am i bent on repeating?

why is it that failing, even getting zero no longer scares me?
why is it that i no longer get that kind of anxiety even though i have some important tasks at hand?
it has been such a long long time since i have last experienced a rush of adrenaline that is examination-related.

as i thought, previous words by people flowed through my mind.

"you will fail in jc. i will get my diploma. and you will be left with nothing if you fail your a's."
back then, i was full of determination.
fresh out of secondary school.
highly confident and motivated.
"come on man, i will show you idiot."

now?
seems like the ball is flying straight to my face.

" don't worry lah, you are so hardworking. can lah."
changed attitude.
if i'm still like the old self,
of course i can.
singapore's education system is still very much stuffing that constrained amount of information into the brain.
coming to jc,
perhaps it is the work of the cytokines,
perhaps it is that my stem cells have decreased significantly,
my astrocytes are no longer produced as much..
or at least i feel..

i hate it when everyone around you says you are hardworking,
when you are just the opposite.
any idea how much i sleep?
any idea how much i nap?
if i do not go to school,
i can fall asleep a few times in a day.
i don't even know if my headaches are due to my over-restedness.

fear.
can it be induced?

can i start fearing?

and have time to make it?

:)

2008-09-03T00:07:00.002+08:00

yay!
i love running even more!
my ranking in singapore for the females is 566th. hehe.
i didn't reach my 2 expectations - not stopping and achieving a certain timing.

too complacent.
drank too much water that got me the stitch during the last few km.

yay.
my next marathon: standard chartered or new balance?
someone is paying for my standard chatered's.
so maybe, i will forgo new balance. =)

and million thanks to yuan lin.
came down just to see if i was okay!
wah lao.
so yi qi can!
was really touched!

and thanks to liyan and samuel.
hohohoho.
at the final lap, when i made a dash to the finishing line,
they called out my name.
hehehe.

and not to forget,
yeap jun and christine,
saw them at the esplanade area...

and yeah, on that same day,
i got myself a duffel bag!
it's PINK!

wow random thoughts here and there,
regarding the marathon, i think all of us should be able to shave off even more minutes.
because it was so congested that we were not able to run for quite a long time after the flag down. yup.

and yeah, the championchip was tied so tightly to my shoes that i had to cut away my shoe laces in the end to remove the chip. so extreme.

wow really random thoughts.

shall pen down a more structured entry the next time.

till then.

:D

2008-08-30T23:18:00.001+08:00

aiya. shit. i'm using my desktop now..
cannot post photos.
anyway, i shall divide teachers' day into 2 parts.

first of which,
my JC CELEBRATION.
082S08 rawks rawks rawks rawks rawks!!!
i really really really really really love the class more and more with events like this!
first it's the thanksgiving and then this,
i know i'm very BHB but we ARE JUST SO SWEET!!!!!

CAN'T STAND US MAN.
SWEET LITTLE, URM.. AUNTIES???
HAHAHAHAHAHA!

they are..
not me...
hahahaha...
wah 2S08ians,
don't come and scold me ar...
my left eyelid is battling.
i fear for my life. hahahahaha..

so, yup,
we sang salalalalala for sala!!!
our actions were so damn funny and the song was very very beautifully sung...
mainly because i can hear my voice crisp and clear..
hahahahahahaha..
i wanna upload on youtube leh..
but some people would not like it..
hahahahaha.
but 2S08ians will all know it...
hehehehe...

so yup,
i slept at 4am that day to do the videos!
and many thanks to yvonne, agnes, wei qiang and also yuanlin!
yuanlin helped me with the videos i am in charge of..
mr ang and mr kwek..
yvonne did salalalalala one.
agnes did mr tan one..
wei qiang did meh tang one..
haha..

so i charged my laptop in the hall.
right in front of the principal..and the econs and mother tongue teachers hehe.

then when sala went to stage,
2S08 sang salalalalalalala!
with 2S06!
hehehehehe.
a pity redonnia was sitting quite far away from me.
if not, i want to laugh at her singing.
hehehehehe..
sala was indeed grateful and glad.
of course.

then ng lao shi went to stage.
we shouted hua zi!
hehehehehe.
people were curious why we called him that..
hehehehehehe.

oh yes,
teachers' day gift..
guess what we bought for ng lao shi?
BOXER!
red one somemore!

hahahahaha!
my idea!
joycelin thought he looks like simpsons.
so we bought the simpsons one for him...
hahahahahaha.
but i think he is gonna use it to mop the floor.
hehehehehe..

and sala's video is damn nice lor!
i kept replaying and i think we are seriously so sweet!
while showing him the video,
i kept saying stuff to make him cry.
i am not sure whether he did cry.
but he is damn touched.

yes.
graduation day.
wanna see whether he will cry.
i have never seen any male teachers shed a tear.
please let my last MOE institution show me the impossible.
hehehehe.

yeah..

after all these things,
i love my class more man!
was very high today.
i hope tomorrow i will use up my highness.
so that i can start getting serious fast.
haiz.
nike human race.
please use up all my highness man.
in my mind, " salalalalalala" kept replaying man.

shucks. i forgot to blog about my secondary school visit!
=X

yes. this year, i told mrs tan to wait for me.
and she really waited.
until 12 plus =)
and sorry car..
that slowpoke elaine..
i waited for her at the bustop opposite my college.
3 113s passed and she is nowhere near.
made car wait for a really really long time.
i think since 10.45 or what.
wah really sorry car.

then.. oh yes while i was waiting for the bus,
kym ng look-alike came and talked to me!
she asked me where i was going before coming to a conclusion that she has got the wrong person.
hehehehe.
never mind, we are still from the S_J_ family =)
and besides i think she is a very sweet teacher.
then i wish her happy teachers' day.
hehe.

then later i saw redonnia.
haha.
before that i just smsed her.
and she didn't bring the cake out!
so QB.
people wanna eat lor.
wanted to make her stay and wait with me.
but ying xian was with her.
and they left when the bus was here...

and yes, when elaine was finally here...
we went to our beloved yy.
mr gek did not come to school this year!
he said he didn't feel like coming.
i think he is worried that we were busy with our prelims and may not visit him..
hehehehe.
if i am not wrong, in sec 4 i have promised to visit every year on teachers' day hehehehe.

and yup, passed the mug to mrs tan.
and she said she needed one.
yay.
bingo.
she gave us all a hug.
and she said she wanted to kiss me..
hahahaha.so sweet ar..
mrs tan said i'm always all smiles and mild-tempered.
hohoho.
mild-tempered?
my temper changed a lot in jc.
easily irritated.
hehe.
nah.
don't say me good, kind, blar blar..
for i am the darkangel.
not worthy of the title, "good".
chatted with mdm tans too.
hehe.

it's very sad not to see ms lim.
her very table has a new unfamiliar face.
i miss ms lim.

we chatted a while and left.
then we went to eat yu piang mi fen.
hehe.
then we went to eat tau huey.
and we just chatted for a very very long time.

good times.
old pals.
although not all of you came,
i'm glad we are still keeping in touch.
not all though....
=)